Monday, March 15, 2010
Trying
Monday, March 15, 2010
Trying
Well this last week sure was different. First, let me start off by thanking everyone for their thoughts & prayers for Solsey. I was overwhelmed by the support and kind words for her. It just goes to show how Solsey had a way of really drawing everyone in.
Last week was tough. Being a senior, Solsey's passing was something that crossed my mind more often than I would like to admit (especially since Christmas). I thought I was preparing myself, but I really don't think you can be prepared at all. I guess, what I was doing was tuning in more to her to make sure she didn't suffer. I wanted her to soak up every drop of life, but as soon as the suffering outweighed the good, I wanted to do right by her. But, in then end, you didn't need to be closely tuned in to see that breathing just became too difficult for her. And while I am prone to over analyzing and being a bit too hard on myself, I think we came pretty darn close to helping her squeeze every last drop out of life with minimal suffering.
One thing I have learned over the past week is that nothing can prepare you for the loss of such a presence in the house. I miss her in so many ways I never imagined. I didn't think the house would be as quiet as it is. I mean after all we have three other pugs running around, but it is eerily quiet around here.
Benjamin, Henry, Luna & Cupid have taken Solsey's passing way harder than I anticipated. Not once have the pugs woken us up in the wee hours of the morning in order to eat breakfast. On Saturday, the pugs didn't even eat breakfast until after 9 AM which is unheard of around here. I know we are sad, but it is heartbreaking to see a mopey pug.
Even Cupid has been staying very close, joining us all on the sofa. Not just on the back where she usually lays, but actually snuggling in and claiming a lap for herself, as well.
In the last week, so many thoughts and emotions have swirled around my head. Of course I have some regrets, memories I wished I had captured not only in my mind, but also in photos so could be sure I would never forget. It is likely that I will share some of those things over the coming weeks. I'm not exactly sure what form the blog will take in the near future. We may not be as happy-go-lucky as we have been in the past. And while we have cried plenty of tears this week, rest assured we have also shared a lot of laughs. We have been retelling "remember when Solsey..." stories all week, which can't help but make you smile.
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Every time-every single time-I’ve lost a dog or cat, I knew it was coming…either because they were old and frail or because they had serious health issues when I got them. Each time, I too thought I could prepare for their loss, it never worked out that way. I’ve no doubt I cried as hard and missed them as much as if I’d never contemplated them being gone.
The silence is without them is so hard. Looking down and seeing someone missing breaks your heart each time, too. And seeing the others missing them, reminds us how much more is going on in their little heads than we ever imagined.
I’m so glad you’re back, Corrine. Whatever form ownedbypugs.com takes, I’ll be there. Losing Solsey showed me how much I care about all of your pugs, and Cupid, and you.
My heart just breaks…look at those babies. It is heart wrenching to experience mourning through their eyes, that I know firsthand.
You all are still in my thoughts and prayers constantly…Solsie’s legacy of spreading joy still carries on as the thoughts of her each day bring a smile to my heart.
So good to hear from you today….You and sol havent left my thoughts in the past week. We have all had the dis-pleasure of loosing a pet in our lives…it’s never easy. But having the others around makes it a little easier. I hugged coco extra tight each day this week and told her all about sol. She may be missed but never forgotten. Roberta
My heart goes out to you and your family. I still get upset and miss Carmen (my first Pug that died very suddenly). I know exactly how it feels and hope that the pain of your loss is eased by the love you all have in your hearts for her.
I was so happy to see a new post on OPB today! It’s not going to be easy to get on with life. She was adorable, & such a sweet pug. She will never be forgotten.
It is costly to love anyone or anything. They take a piece of our heart. I am sorry you are hurting. You made a big difference in her life.
Corrine, you took such great care of Sol - she had the best life with you and I hope you will get some comfort from that. My thoughts and prayers have been with you and your family all week. Take care.
Corrine, Prayers of comfort and peace for you and the sweet puggies Benny, Henry & Luna and Cupid. Beauty & Daisey must have felt my sadness,too. My sweet Buttons passed away 3/31/2001 and I still miss her and we still talk about the “remember when, how and where’s” that remind us of her. This is how we remember our fur babies. You gave Solsey such love and care.Prepare ourselves? I wish I knew how-but I don’t. I will pray that the OBP home will soon return to happy puggies demanding breakfast, running and playing and posing for mom with that clicky thing! Peace,Prayers & pug-hugs from the Colorado 3
I definitely hope the pug blog continues on. It’s the one thing I look forward to when I come into work in the morning. One of my fellow dog loving coworkers often asks how “those blog pugs are doing”.
I am still extremely sad for you and the pugs about Sol’s passing but I think that she’d want you guys to live every moment to it’s fullest like she did.
I am so sad to hear about Solsey. I have not been on OBP for a few days because my Daddy’s back has been hurting.
She was such a special pug, however, I happen to think all pugs are special.
I know that Sol had a happy life living with you!
Welcome back Corrine, in whatever form it takes. Solsey has been and is on my desktop. I have talked to her each day with sorrow and joy. I have talked to Bo Peep and asked her to take care of Solsey at the Rainbow Bridge.
I can see the sorrow in Benjamin, Henry and Luna’s eyes. I had also wondered about Cupid. Solsey had such charisma that her passing is certainly taking its toll on all.
You are still in my prayers that your household will beging to heal and become a happy place again.
I’m glad you’re back, too. And since your blog is about what’s going on in your OBP household, of course it will reflect your “life without Sol”. I think we all understand that.
I’ve also had some experience with trying to prepare for an inevitable loss. And I really don’t think it helps with the grief in the least. All being prepared means is you’re spared the shock and disbelief of the unexpected. It’s still just as hard.
And Corrine, you definitely did very well by Sol. You gave her excellent medical care, comfort and love. She lived out the end of her days surrounded by abundant love and security! That was a wonderful thing for sweet Solsey!
Sol was SO lucky to have you as a mama.. and she loved her siblings and her life so much. You gave her something truely special.. a loving home. She was truely blessed.
Our thoughts have been with you all of the last week, and it will carry on that way for many more to come. Thanks for sharing your family with us…
We will all miss Sol greatly.. she was one of a kind.
All you can do at this time is just do the best you can. Time will eventually heal your heartache. You have been such a good mother to Sol as well as your other babies. I really hope that will give you some peace. Just knowing that you gave her a quality of life she probably wouldn’t have had should help in the healing process. We will all miss her and we will all be here when you feel like writing.
I, too, was glad to see an OBP post this morning. But I know you’re still hurting. Sol made a tremendous impact on everyone so its no surprise that her passing is so devastating. We all know that our furbabies become true members of our families and there is simply no way to prepare for losing a family member. It must be doubly hard for our pets because they don’t know why their beloved sibling is missing. I feel so sorry for Henry, Benny, Luna and Cupid. Just remember we’re all here for you guys so write about whatever makes you feel better.
I’d like to thank you for not only sharing Sol with us but also for giving her a fantastic last year of her life. What a sweet gift! I wish all animals could be as lucky as Sweet Sol.
Corrine I was so happy to see you back again I know it is hard I have thought about sol everyday and have had many thoughts about her happy and sad you were such a good mommy to her and she was so very lucky and I feel you were very lucky to have had her she was a very special pug who touched so manys hearts Benjamin henry and luna look so sad my heart breaks for them when I first moved to Florida six and a half years ago I had 3 pugs a peke and two kitties my life was centered around them and in the first year and a half I lost all of themthey were up in age when I moved but to lose them one after another was so very hard everyone said in time it will get easier and I guess it does but there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think of them or miss them they take a piece of our hearts I only hope it does get a little easier for you and the gang and we will always be here for you to I am thankful for you sharing the antics of all of the pugs and cupid with us
I add my thoughts, prayers, and love to the above…I have Sol on my desktop and stop several times a day to pet her face and talk to her. I am in awe that this little bundle of fur had sooooo captured my heart…She was truly a gift to all of us!
Thank you for sharing Corrine. All I can do is cry, and I’m not sure what else to say. Solsey touched our hearts in incredibly beautiful ways. She reminds me to make precious every moment I spend with my babies.
Just a thought, but maybe you could keep this blog going with stories of Luna, Benny & Henry (it’ll be nice to hear about how they transition from grieving over Sol to getting back into their routines, per say) and create a sub-blog….one where you could share memories and stories of Sol?
When we lost Tish a couple of year’s ago, I didn’t think her sister Lily would ever get over the loss (I don’t think she completely has), let alone forgive me for taking Tish away one day in the car and not bringing her home.
It never seizes to amaze me just how much these lil’ guys impact our lives in such a big way and how dearly they are missed when they’re gone. If that’s a human mental illness, I hope they never find a cure.
You are so right. Even when you think you are prepared, you just aren’t.
Corrine, I’m so glad to hear from you. I have been to your blog every day, hoping to see a new post.
You don’t have to come here and pretend to be happy- or anything that you aren’t feeling at that particular moment. We all love you guys at OBP- in whatever form you come.
Although we can’t imagine your pain, Solsey girl has left a hole in all of our hearts and we’re here to walk this road of grief with you. We’re also here to celebrate sweet Sol’s life with you. What a little love she was.
You remain in my prayers!
I’m so sorry about Sol - I can tell she was loved! I lost my beloved kitty, Bailey, in 2007 and I still cry for him. I can’t imagine what will happen if I ever lose one of my precious pugs. I always thought I was a “cat person” until I got Zoe and I have fallen head over heels in love with her and her brothers, Peyton and Webster! Hang in there and please keep the stories coming ... I love reading about them and their adventures!
I have just come back today as it was hard for me to do as sweet sol meant so much as i’m sad seeing the sadness in their eyes sol was so very special.My thoughts and prayers are with you all as this has been a hard week for all as we hope we can go on with owned by pugs for sol as we have shared so many memories as sol has become a part of each and every one of us.Our thoughts are with you and your family at this time please take care.
thank you for the update, that pic of Benny, Luna, and Henry-I can see it in their eyes, that someone is missing; I wouldn’t even have had to know that Sol is gone now.
I’ve only been following your blog since december, and I wept reading your last post about Sol’s passing; she had only been with you for a little over a year, but she seemed to have been the glue that held you all together. Such a beloved beautiful girl to have fallen into the perfect family for her remaining life.
We’ve been thinking of you all week. Sol is on our desktop too! The one where she looks like she’s on the phone. I just loved that pic. You’ve inspired me to write about each of my pets so I have memories and possibly pics to remember them by. Take care OPB family.
So sorry for you loss. She was a sweet little girl who brought you so much joy and she will be missed.
All the best.
We have all wrapped our hearts around Solsey. You gave us quite a gift by letting us be a part of Solsey’s life (and the rest of the Motley Crew!) as we shared her ups and downs that you let us in on. And now we share your tears and laughter and hope for healing for all of you (and, yes, us as well).
You all gave her a wonderful life. You loved her like she’d never been loved before. Her life was so rich for being part of yours, your husband’s, Luna’s, Henry’s, Benny’s.
Of course you can never be prepared for the passing no matter what you hoped before hand. It’s heartbreaking to see everyone suffering, but it’s hopeful to know of the laughter and remembering. Our prayers continue.
Well said, Huckle!
Oh you guys.. the worst part is you can’t tell them how Sol us in a better place and breathing properly now.
My heart goes out to you.
For this blog.. you do what you need to do. We are here for you
I am so very sorry for your loss of Solsey.
You gave her a wonderful home and made her later year special with your love. I will keep you and the pugs and Cupid in my prayers for strength and healing. Thank you for sharing her with all of us.
Loss is not something any of us ever get over. It takes a different form, the edges get softer, but the loss…that never goes away. I doubt ANY of us are ever prepared no matter what! We will continue to read, no matter which turn your blog takes! Take care and BIG hugs to the furry kids!
It is so hard when our little fur babies leave us. I don’t think we can ever really be prepared. Sol was so special. Hold on to those “remember when” memories. They will help get you through the rough days. We’ve been thinking alot about you all and are glad to see a post today. Hang in there
Our thoughts are still with you.